Not an Object, Not an attention seeker, and Definitely not Inferior

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This week I’ve finished reading the novel Lullabies for Little Criminals and wow! Was this book an experience. For those who’ve been following up with my recent posts will know how this novel mainly focuses on drugs, bad parenting, sex and prostitution. All topics that are controversial and not common to young kids. This novel was definitely a chilling experience that taught me many life lessons and made me realize how our society is not at it’s finest.

Looking from a feminist point of view, this novel definitely had some ups and down when it came to gender roles and how they were perceived. The men in this novel were regularly shown to be dominant, and the woman were seen to be inferior.

One thing I found especially interesting was that women weren’t women and men weren’t men.

Confusing right?

What I mean is, women were seen as sexual objects and nothing more, while most men were seen as monsters, abusers, sex-driven maniacs and even manipulators.

When it came to woman, the men in these societies did not see them for who they were, let alone their personalities, but for their image. A girl could look as beautiful as a flower and have the nastiest personally, yet men would still approach her to satisfy their own obsessive pleasure solely based on appearance. This idea is mostly explored through the eyes of the local pimp, Alphonse.

One of the biggest evils in Baby’s lives was, without a doubt, Alphonse. He manipulated pretty girls with affection and sexual gifts to use them for his own benefit. Unfortunately, Baby walks right into his trap and begins to look for his attention, eventually getting swayed by his gifts and sweet commentary.

Alphonse is literally THE perfect example of how men saw women as nothing more than sexual objects, as he begins to show interest in Baby only after she dresses more daringly. When Baby first saw Alphonse, she mentioned, “Although Alphonse was terribly interested in women, he never seemed to notice me. But that’s because I wasn’t really a woman” (O’Neill, 149). By saying this, we see how Alphonse had little to no interest in Baby as she wasn’t “really a woman” implementing that she didn’t have the looks or features of a typical female.

Yet, when Baby started wearing more exposing and “foxier” cloths like Zoe and some of the other prostitutes, Alphonse interest developed faster than a cheetahs run.  Suddenly he had his eyes on her, and even went as far as calling her a “hot tamale” (155) and sending her things he thought would look good on her.

Another example of how men saw women as sexual objects were with the idea of prostitutes. When Alphonse forced Baby into prostitution, he would make her sit outside on a bench looking all pretty and dolled up, waiting for men to have a look at her and decide if they wanted to have sex. Alphonse put her on display as if she was a trophy, not in a proud way, but in a bragging way. They would wait all day for “offers” to come in, and once they did, he would make her have sex, no questions asked.

He never had her best interests in mind; he only thought of her as an outlet for making money. He convinced her of becoming a prostitute and encouraged her to sell her body. To him, she was an object that could be tucked away on a far shelf and pulled out whenever he needed. And if that object ever faltered or got stuck on the shelf, he would abuse it out with anger until he got what he wanted.

Male dominance is another aspect we see through Alphonse and even Baby’s own father, Jules. When Baby decides to go back to school, she meets an odd boy named Xavier. Unlike most men in society, he was portrayed as kind, innocent and someone who didn’t want to take advantage of her. Eventually, they started dating and decided to have sex. The only place Baby could think of was Alphonse’s apartment as she expected he wouldn’t be there.

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However, as I suspected, Alphonse walked in and saw what was happening. He took hold of  Xavier and beat him up. I was taken by surprise when Baby yelled: “Let him go!” (306). She took control of the situation and mustered the courage to go against his wishes. She used her power as a woman and used her voice to say what was only right. Yet for her act of courage, she was rewarded with a slap. After finally doing what needed to be done, she didn’t get a courageous pat on the back but instead got a red mark on her face. “I didn’t feel any pain when Alphonse slapped me on both sides of my face. I could feel both my cheeks getting all warm and tingly” (O’Neill 306). All because she finally did something for herself and on her own will. No one should ever lay a hand on someone else, but because men were accustomed to being better, this type of behaviour was allowed and acceptable. No questions asked. After all, he was the mighty man, and she was a lifeless stripper.

Jules, on the other hand, also shows dominance over Baby as he decides what she should or shouldn’t do. He continuously restricts her in all sorts of ways. As Baby mentioned, “I couldn’t dress like that or Jules would throw a fit. He didn’t even let me braid my hair. He thought that Bobby pins were invented solely for attracting black men” (150). Not only does this show that Baby couldn’t do some of the simplest things, but it also shows how men could restrict women in what they wear and who they can and can’t hang out with.

Predictions, Thoughts and More!

“Childhood is the most valuable thing that’s taken away from you in life, if you think about it.” – Heather O’Neill

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Hey guys!

It’s been a while since I’ve last posted, but I’m glad to announce that I’ll be writing a lot more in the next few weeks. While I’ve been away, I started reading the novel Lullabies for Little Criminals by the wonderful author Heather O’Neill. As you can probably guess, I’ll be informing you about my thoughts on what I’ve read so far and some interesting/odd parts that I’ve encountered.  

I decided to split my reading into three large chunks, and for each, I’ll be analyzing the novel under different literary theories to bring light to some interesting and mysterious things.

While growing up, I was continually being told that drugs were wrong, that smoking made your lungs die, that swearing was rude and that sex is something you should always stay far away from. I was told this at a very young age, by Health teachers, my parents, my aunts and any other adult I was close with, so naturally, as I was growing up, these topics were something I didn’t pay much attention to. Just like how I was taught this at a young age, I assumed every child would be taught the same.

Yet, in Lullabies for Little Criminals the children who are only 12 years old, are out buying magic mushrooms and doing Heroine, having sex, and are using curse words every few seconds. To me, this is very much not normal, in fact it’s kind of scary, yet to Baby and those living in Montreal, this is as natural as the rain that drizzles down.

Lullabies for Little Criminals follows the main character, Baby and her father Jules, through their journey of life. Motherless, Baby lives with her 27-year-old father Jules, who is continuously having to move from place to place in areas that are not so child-friendly. The novel starts with Jules and Baby moving into a new apartment, which we later see is not a permanent home as they continue to move again. Although moving can be hard, Baby never complains about it and is just grateful that she’s with Jules.

When I was around Baby’s age, I had to move schools as my family, and I were moving to another part of the city. It was incredibly hard to leave everything behind and start fresh, yet Baby was completely fine with it. Her reaction to moving takes me by surprise as I firmly remember being that young and upset over leaving my old life and starting a new somewhere else.

I guess not every child thinks alike or faces the same circumstances.

Already by just reading the first few chapters, I can see how Jules isn’t the best person for Baby to be around with. For one, he treats her with no respect and minimal kindness when it comes to him and his drugs. When the book starts, Jules and Baby’s relationship unveils as a sweet relationship between one friend to another. Not father to daughter. Although it was nice to see how they were more open with each other, Jules attitude changed whenever he went after drugs. On his way to buy Heroin one day, he mentions “Baby! Quit following us. Go play with your doll! Get lost, okay?” (O’Neil 11). He was desperate to get his “Chocolate milk” (9), (aka Heroine) and because of that, he spoke very harshly to a 12-year-old girl and left her alone on the streets. He was blinded by the thought of his happiness that he forget about her safety. I feel like this will cause long term problems in both their lives as having drug-addicted parents can have a significant toll on one’s life. I predict that Baby will start looking elsewhere for the attention that her father doesn’t give her, which will only lead her into doing more drug-related things and place her in bad situations.

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Through my research for my previous essay and the knowledge I’ve acquired in Biology and human studies, I’ve learned that for most of the time, having drug-addicted parents can have a significant effect on their children. It can influence them from a young age and put them at higher risks of facing psychological problems and substance addiction in their future. As I was reading the part where Baby wanted to try drugs for the sake of getting attention from her father, I felt conflicted as I firmly believe the mushrooms won’t be the end of it.

As the story unveils, Baby and Jules’ relationship falters continuously and is no longer what it used to be. After getting arrested and sent to rehab, he actually stopped doing drugs and was on the right path. However Baby wasn’t happy about that because, after his release he seemed different.  “‘Don’t lie to me. You’re sitting there stoned you’re eyes are popping out of your fucking head…I just fucking can’t stand it. You’ve got those fucking junky ways’ “(92). He began to start accusing her of being on drugs and talked to her through a tone of disgust and hate. He would never leave her alone and constantly swear at her for no apparent reason.

Seeing Jules act out like this randomly makes me wonder what triggers it? Whenever I think of his past, I get sent through a spiral of puzzlement. Why is he living like this? Why does Baby have to live like this? Why does he regularly talk bad about his birthplace? Was he a high school dropout? Is that why he doesn’t have a job? Or maybe he’s too focused on drugs that no one will hire him? Or perhaps he’s not interested in earning money from himself and Baby?

Whenever Baby speaks, or someone mentions her, I think of her as a tall 17-year-old girl with blonde/ brown hair and big brown eyes. We were never provided with much information on her appearance. However, I can’t help but see her as a 17-year-old girl when she’s actually 12. I think that’s partly because with all the things she knows and has done, I feel weird imaging her as 12. It seems impossible for my brain to comprehend that she’s still a child, who is unfairly and dangerously exposed to a dark world.

This has been one hell of a start, and I’m very much interested in what happens next. Speaking from a reader’s point of view, I feel like the author intended this book for any adolescents as a reminder that stuff like this is real. Falling into drugs, prostitution and being influenced to do horrible thing is possible, it’s not something your parents or teachers are making up. Personally, reading about this stuff made me sympathize with Baby, she’s still so young, yet is caught up with something no kid should have to go through.

Keep checking my blog for more updates on my reading!

-Z.k

Sources:

O’Neill, Heather. Lullabies for Little Criminals.. New York: Harper Perennial, 2006.


Innocent until proven guilty?

Anyone who is accused of committing a crime should have a fair trial with an equivalent examination of all evidence, as well as being perceived as innocent until officially proven guilty. This is a joint statement that applies to almost everyone as many countries have these rights outlined in their legal documents. However, why was Adnan Syed not given these rights?

In 2000, a jury had found Adnan Syed, a 17-year-old boy at the time, guilty of killing his ex-girlfriend, Hae Min Lee out of spite and jealousy. He was charged with first-degree murder and was sentenced to life in prison based on evidence shown at trial. Nonetheless, I believe Adnan Syed is innocent for the reasons listed below.


Based on “Serial,” my reasons begin with…

Asia McClain

While listening carefully to the first couple episodes of “Serial,” it was brought to my attention that a student named Asia McClain, had written a letter to Adnan explaining a significant fact. This letter fell into Adnan’s favour as it pointed towards his innocence. However, it was not processed as evidence. On January 13th, 1999, around 2:36 pm Hae Min Lee, Adnan’s ex-girlfriend was found dead. Adnan was arrested for her murder and sent to jail. However, according to Asia’s letter, it would’ve been highly unlikely for him to have murdered her as Asia saw him at the library around 2:30 pm. As she mentioned in her letters “I am not sure if you remember talking to me in the library on Jan 13th, but I remember chatting with you. Throughout your actions that day I believe in your innocence” (McClain). Not only did Asia see and talk to him at the library, but she also spoke about his character. According to her, he did not seem like a jealous, rage-filled person who wanted to kill Hae, but instead a person who wished her all the happiness. I don’t think it’s possible to kill someone and hide their body all within 6 minutes. Asia’s letter was very crucial to Adnan’s case but wasn’t used, making me believe that someone is screwing him over.


Jay’s Irregularity

Is it just me or does Jay’s story change a little every time he gets interviewed? While doing some research, I saw that Jay, one of Adnan’s many friends, had an inconsistent story. According to Jay, Adnan mentioned that “he was going to kill that bitch” because “Hae made him mad” (Serial episode 1). Based on this testimony the state built their case and illustrated Adnan as a crazy guy who became a murder over rage. However later on, Jay mentioned that Adnan jokingly said  “I think I’m going to kill her, yeah, I think I’m going to kill her” (Serial episode 2) contradicting what he said previously. On the night of Hae’s death, Jay mentioned that Adnan called Jenna’s landline whom he was with, around 3:21 pm asking for a ride. Then later on, Jay changed his story and says Adnan wasn’t the one who called, it was actually himself who called her landline. However, this doesn’t make any sense because why would Jay call her when they were already together at her house? This also doesn’t make sense because Jenna clearly stated that Adnan was the one who called and not Jay. To make things worse, when the call was traced back, it pinged a tower that was nowhere near Jenna’s house showing me that the phone call wasn’t from Jay. I believe there was no substantial evidence pointing towards Adnan’s guilt, but only loose ends created by Jay’s lies.

Adnan’s Personality

Almost everyone portrayed Adnan as an average guy who did whatever everyone else did. Nothing about him was out of the ordinary, weird or even creepy. According to many peers, he was the definition of a golden child. “He was an honour roll student, volunteer EMT. He was on the football team. He was a star runner on the track team. He was the homecoming king. He led prayers at the mosque. Everybody knew Adnan to be somebody who was going to do something really big” (Rabia Chaudry). Adnan excelled in many things and did not have any prior arrests or any run-in with the laws yet he was painted to be a rage filled monster. Although he had no recollection of what happened that night, I believe that this  type of personality would not have murdered someone.

Why choose this medium?

This medium allows me to express my own opinion, thoughts, and ideas in a way without having to be formal, which creates a conversational environment. Writing a blog is typically done in an informal tone and creates a platform where I can speak my mind and show my ideas in an insightful way. There is no right or wrong when it comes to blogging as there are no restrictions on what you can discuss. I can freehand a post and speak what’s on my mind without having to worry about what people say, as it’s an opinion based medium. Unlike a podcast or a video, I don’t have to create a script of what I want to say, nor do I have to edit the video or podcast to make sure no external sounds are being heard that can distract the reader. Blogs over other mediums allow me to show visual content as well. I can use pictures, videos and links in a post to enhance the understanding of my audience since some might be visual learners, whereas in a podcast I can’t do that. One thing blogs have that podcasts or videos don’t have is text. Some people may find it easier to understand concepts better when they’re written down because it allows the readers to go back and re-read what they don’t understand.  

Other external sources used

https://serialpodcast.org/

https://www.baltimoresun.com/news/bs-xpm-2000-06-07-0006070134-story.html By: Caitlin Francke

Serial: 15 years later

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I just finished listening to the “Serial” podcast series hosted by Sarah Koenig and all I’ve got to say is “wow that’s a lot”. Speaking honestly, I had no idea what this series was about until only a little while ago. I hopped online and looked at a brief overview,  to my surprise, I found the story very interesting. I wanted to know what happened and what came next. As I started to go through the series I felt a lot of different emotions, like being confused and intrigued.


For starters, I liked this podcast because it’s attention-grabbing and it lets me visualize the events as they unfold. I was not able to physically see the people but just listen to their story so it was very refreshing to hear the emotion from another voice. I also liked this podcast because it had many different perspectives, aside from the main narrator. It was interesting to see the story from the accused himself, as well as those close to him. It not only gave me a larger aspect to form my opinion but gave me more detail about the case.


As many of you know, this podcast was created based on a true story and like always, whenever something is based on a true story it makes the actual story 10x scarier since you know it actually happened. As I was researching more about Serial, I realized just how popular it is. While listening to the story, some parts got me shivering, which got me thinking about the victims family. They might feel uneasy or even frighten since a private matter has become so public. People have already started to form opinions, which could be damaging to the family. I hope they take this opportunity to share their experience with others and show people how important it is to know all the details regarding any type of case.


Speaking of details, one thing I realized was that the court system seemed flawed as they didn’t have all the details to this case. They didn’t do a proper check of what happened nor did they bring up anything related to Asia’s letter. Even after it was revealed who she was, the court said not to contact her even though she was with him at the time of the crime which could’ve ultimately proven his innocence. Questions like “Why was she not presented at the trail? Did the court purposely try covering it up? were the type that kept coming to mind.


  Serial has actually been my first podcast ever. I was always the type to read since reading the words help me understand better. On a personal level, one of the drawbacks towards the podcast was that there was no text. There were times where I couldn’t understand what was being said since it was either badly recorded or wasn’t clearly spoken. I would try listening to the part again but even then, I still couldn’t understand it. There were also times where I missed a few words so I would try to go back, but it was very hard to find the exact spot. I would either skip too far back or too ahead. While reading, it is unlikely to miss pages and easier to go back since there are page numbers. You can also access a book any time whereas, your phone might die and you won’t be able to listen to a podcast.


Overall, for my first podcast, I think it was a pretty good experience. Although I prefer reading, podcasts allow emotion to be shown and allows readers to see the story in another perspective which can be very cool. I don’t know if I’ll continue listening, but so far it was interesting and well put together as it showed all the side to the story.

-Z.K

The Road To University

Should grade 12 University level English be a requirement for entry into all university programs?

This is a very debatable question. Some people may say yes whereas others may say no. Majority of people believe that you need to take grade 12 English only if you are planning to do something related to it in the future, but in my opinion, I believe the exact opposite. I think that taking English is essential for entry into any university program because English teaches the basis of almost everything we do. Whether that’s speaking, writing, texting or creating an email, the use of English is always present. English teaches us proper grammar, punctuation, formatting and structure. These are the type of skills you will use in university despite what program or field you go in.

With grade 12 English you will learn basic skills like how to effectively communicate with others. Throughout your university program, you will be required to discuss ideas with your peers or professors to prove a point or explain your opinion. If this is the case, you will want to seem credible and seem like you know what you’re doing. By taking grade 12 English it shows that you know how to communicate through various links and will help you prepare for the discussion in your future. Being able to communicate effectively will make you stand out and will allow you to do your job well. During grade 12 English you will do many assignments that involve reading, writing speaking and will teach you how to communicate with others in different forms using the right way to portray yourself.

In any program, you will be required to express yourself. Expressing yourself if very important as it will be a large part of your future. In order to relay a message, you will need to know how to express what you want to say in an understandable manner so that it’s easy to grasp. Taking grade 12 English will help you learn how to properly express yourself as it will teach you how to use proper grammar and sentence structure. This course will allow you to gain more knowledge on how to proofread and make sure what you are trying to say is structured properly. Let’s think of it this way. If you don’t know the basic sentence structure or proper grammar you will seem less credible and your message won’t be relayed properly since your grammar may not be correct. These are all the skills that will definitely be used in university and the only place you learn them is in English. Once you get to university you won’t be taught basic skills since you will be expected to already know them from previous English courses.

Analyzing data and learning to take down important notes is very important for any U level course. Most University courses have a lot of textbook reading and reflection pieces. In order to fully understand the concepts, you need to be able to know how to differentiate between important and unimportant facts. Since university will have have a heavier workload and many assignments, you will need to know how to effectively take notes and think critically as well. In grade 12 English, you will look at different perspectives and practice how to analyze a piece from a new point of view. Without taking English in grade 12 you won’t have an effective understanding as someone else who has. University programs want to make sure their students are well prepared when it comes to English as it is used in almost everything.

This is why I believe that grade 12 University English should be required for any program. It will help you tremendously in the future.